At the age of seventeen, Paige Alexander had it all planned. She wrote a letter, sat in the bath, and slit her wrists. Her plan failed.
Her best friend, Alex, is dead.
Paige can't get over her twin sister blaming her for a tragic event in their past.
Colorado is in the midst of voting on lesbian and gay rights and Paige is terrified to come out of the closet, fearful for her life.
Many people in Paige's life are keeping secrets from her. Will she piece everything together before it's too late?
In this gripping first-person narrative, a young college student grapples with more than first love or coming of age. In a world filled with homophobia, suicidal feelings, and a dysfunctional family, Paige cuts her wrists in an attempt to free herself from the crazy life that's all she's ever known.
Could there be new lessons in store for Paige? With the help of her girlfriend, friends, and a compassionate therapist, can Paige find the safe space she needs to heal, grow, and cut her strings?
Occasionally you find yourself hitting the 'reading wall'. It's that slump you get into when you find yourself reading the same thing over and over and over again. With me, for instance, I'm a big fan of reading paranormal based stories. There's absolutely nothing wrong with them, but I sometimes start feeling that genre lather, rinse and repeat, so to speak. The only way I've found to break the funk is to read something totally opposite of my norm and out of my snuggly, book comfort zone.
Marionette would not be something that I normally picked up, but the engrossing description compelled me to take the plunge into a gritty, realistic fiction. With themes of depression, suicide, sexual orientation, identity crises, isolation and a batshit-crazy family, Marionette was chock-full of messy realism. (Seriously, Paige had insane, power hungry parents that would make the 'Manson family' appear downright warm and fuzzy.) Paige is fighting a lot of demons in an uphill battle from page one. At first I thought, "Her situation can't be that bad...I mean, depression has a way of making an other wise sunny day seem dark and dreary.", but the more I read, the more foreboding I felt toward Paige's story. By the end I detested her parents and was shocked that Paige wasn't even more damaged than she already was.
The best part of Marionette was that every turn of the page had me on edge for the conclusion. It unfolded beautifully and had me racing for the end at breakneck speed because of the subtle hint of mystery that Markinson slipped in. The ending was shocking, but somehow it felt right. All of the tragic build up that the author so skillfully weaved through the story lead Paige to something that felt like destiny. Not an easy thing to make a reader feel about a fictional character.
This Goth Girl Gives It:
-Actually, I never would have been here. I didn't want to find myself. Truth be known, I thought therapy was a huge waste of time, especially for me. I'm not depressed. I'm not crazy. I just want control.
-What in the hell did she mean by that? If I were braver, I would have asked. But I was logical, not brave. I didn't like people making assumptions about me, yet letting people make assumptions helped me stay hidden.
T.B. Markinson is a 39-year old American writer, living in England, who pledged she would publish before she was 35. Better late than never. When she isn't writing, she's traveling around the world, watching sports on the telly, visiting pubs in England, or taking the dog for a walk. Not necessarily in that order. She has published two novels: A Woman Lost and Marionette.
*Goth Girl Gabs was provided an ARC in exchange for an honest review*